love dies slowly

I think mom somehow blames dad for what has happened to her and she is mad at him most of the time. "I don't love you anymore" she says- "you should get another wife" she barks- Dad does not understand that she is "sick" and he hurts so badly over this rejection.

"What can I do to make her happy again?" is his all day quest.

She swears a lot and calls him names- it hurts to see them like this as they have always been so in love. He would do anything for her - in his own dementia he cannot understand and there is no comfort we can give to him.

I Want to Die While You Still Love Me

I want to die while you still love me,

While yet you hold me fair,

While laughter lies upon my lips

And lights are in my hair.

I want to die while you still love me,

and bear to that still bed,

Your kisses turbulent, unspent,

To warm me when I'm dead.

I want to die while you still love me,

Oh, who would care to live

Till love has nothing more to ask

And nothing more to give!

I want to die while you still love me,

and never, never see

The glory of this perfect day

Grow dim or cease to be.

Georgia Johnson